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10/11/2019 1 Comment

Coping with a Hysterectomy

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Not having these body parts (uterus, ovaries, and cervix) doesn't make you less of a woman. Being unable to bear children doesn't make you less of a woman. I know how hard it is to feel and realize this because I went through all of these feelings when I had my hysterectomy. It seemed like everyone was pregnant or already had kids and I was in my own little world of never being able to have children. People would say that I could adopt. Although well meaning, I still needed to process all of my feelings to be able to deal with not being able to ever become pregnant. It was a loss and something I had to grieve and still grieve. We may overhear someone talking in a store about something to do with children that may make us upset. Know that it's okay to grieve this loss at any point in your life. Grieving is a necessary part of life and isn't a straight line and your feelings are valid. People don't know what to say when something like this happens and I had to keep that in mind, too. I didn't and still don't want people to tip toe around me having a hysterectomy. It was hard, really hard and when I look back to the year 2014 when I had my hysterectomy, it was the darkest part of my life as I went through all of my feelings. I'm thankful for my family and friends who helped me deal with these feelings. 

Here are things that I have done/do to help me cope with my feelings: 
  • I journaled most days if not every day how I was feeling, what happened the day before, what I’m thankful for, etc.
  • I joined support groups on Facebook for people who have had hysterectomies because I didn’t know anyone at the time who had a hysterectomy at my age
  • I set boundaries for myself. For example, if I knew that I wouldn’t feel comfortable at a baby shower that I was invited to, I didn’t go. If it was for someone really close, I still got them a gift, but met up with them by myself before or after their baby shower
  • I have been seeing the same therapist since 2014 (I had my hysterectomy that year) to help deal with the emotions and feelings that come along with it
  • A few months after I had my hysterectomy, I deleted social media accounts for a few weeks. It was too much for me to see pregnancy announcements and pictures of children
  • I listen to music all the time and find it helps me cope
  • My gynecologist from late 2014 to 2017 didn't deliver babies so I didn't have to sit in a waiting room with pregnant women and have this added reminder
  • I read self help books and wrote down Bible verses from these books as a reminder. I still go back and reread Bible verses from these books that have them when I need to:
    • Too Blessed to be Stressed by Debora Coty
    • Too Loved to be Lost by Debora Coty
    • The Next Happy: Let Go of the Life You Planned and Find a New Way Forward by Tracey Cleantis
    • An Invitation to Self Care: Why Learning to Nurture Yourself is the Key to the Life You've Always Wanted, 7 Tips for Abundant Living by Tracey Cleantis
    • Stronger: How hard times reveal God’s Greatest Power by Perry Noble
    • Overwhelmed: Winning the War against Worry by Perry Noble
    • Getting through what you can’t get over by Anita Agers Brooks
    • Live Original by Sadie Robertson
    • You’re loved no matter what by Holly Gerth
    • Jesus Calling: Enjoying Peace in Hus Presence by Sarah Young 
    • Boundaries by Dr. Henry Cloud & Dr. John Townsend 
    • Beyond Boundaries by Dr. John Townsend 
    • Safe People and Avoid Those that Aren’t by Dr. Henry Cloud & Dr. John Townsend 
    • The Gifts of Imperfection by Brene Brown
    • The Best Yes by Lysa Terkeurst
    • Dear Woman by Chavos Buycks
    • Girl, Wash Your Face by Rachel Hollis
    • Girl, Stop Apologizing by Rachel Hollis

Here is a journal entry from 2015:
"I had to make the decision to have a hysterectomy for my own health and safety, but that did not make it any easier to deal with. I knew my chances of having kids was slim before my surgery, but now I will never know if I could have had children since I never tried. I felt like I had to make a choice between having kids or going to pharmacy school and I chose pharmacy school, but still could not finish pharmacy school even though I could not have kids now."

Here is a journal entry from the end of 2015
"Having to choose to have a hysterectomy at the young age of 23 is depressing enough, but having to explain this every time I go to a new doctor is a horrible experience each time. I have had nurses tell me that I am too young to be going through this. I do not need this constant reminder that I will never be able to get pregnant and will be missing out on that experience."

I still have to remind nurses at my current doctor that I've had a hysterectomy when they ask when my last period was. Can't they read my chart and see I've had a hysterectomy without asking every time?

I always wanted to have children and it’s something that I still struggle with, but I keep in my mind that there’s another purpose for me and practice these coping mechanisms when I see that I need them. 

Five years later, I'm in a better place than I was when I first had my hysterectomy. I know it's what my body needed (everyone is different). I go to baby showers. I'm there when children are born, and I babysit. I can still be happy for someone else and sad for me at the same time. Growing up, everyone always told me that I would make a great mom because of how I am with children. I have been around children all of my life because one of my grandmother's was a full time babysitter and I became an aunt at 8 years old. I get on the child's level and play with them. Even now people tell me that (they may not know that I can't have children) and I don't let it bother me because one day I may be able to adopt and be a mother. 

Is there something you do to cope that I didn't mention? Leave a comment below and let us know.

I hope you find this information helpful. Know you are not alone. Sending you hugs and love.

Take care,
​💛Samantha

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1 Comment
Elina Wilson link
1/2/2020 07:29:28 am

Great read!!!
Everyone should be aware of the benefits of hysterectomy. Some people think that, undergoing such a procedure might trigger hormonal imbalance. Hormonal imbalance could have a negative influence on the physiological and psychological condition of a person. However, hysterectomy doesn't trigger hormonal imbalance.

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    Samantha Bowick, MPH is the author of "Living with Endometriosis: The Complete Guide to Risk Factors, Symptoms, and Treatment Options" and  "Living with Alpha-1 Antitrypsin Deficiency" as well as a fellow sufferer of multiple chronic illnesses and patient advocate.

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